chee bye how now...i still can not sleep....she sleep le ma....feel like calling her...but i now don know her number...pain pain really very pain...how...i don know why i still love her until now...chee bye wat can i do...i don wan have this feeling...my friend they all oso wan help me...but really can not...i wan to thanks max tat wan helping me...but this thing is can not help de...i really wan to stand up....but i can not...i know why people say once u fall down u can't get up so easy....this time i really fall into a very big hole...fucking big hole..noboby can help me is i must climb up the hole by myself.....this thing is follow me now and i wan kepp run away but i can not...i wan to climb up...i use all my strange...who know it...don know...it really pain...when can i get out of ther hole...i don wan to stay inside anymore...i now trying...but i really sometime wan to give it up for it...i wan to give up le i don wan to be strong le...i really tired about tat le...i really can not come out from tat...HWEE TING....how u teach me la...and tell me wat should i do...it pain full....ur birthday is coming...happy birthday ar....i wan to tell u ba i can not say out....why i do this ting to u...i wan u to come back...i don wan anything...really...i give up on it le...u let me know alot of thing...u let me be good to bad..know how to think....last time i do anything i will never think then go do....Now...i will think i do anything i wiill think of u...i look like childish but i am not...in this place i can suffer laster pain...play and play...got wat thing i oso play....but is i wan de ma...no i don wan de...is trying to not thinking of u....i suffer never mind...but u better don suffer..i promise u before i will protect u now i oso will do it...if u do anything i will sure help u...and protect u....like i at police station tat time...i will side u...actually the police ask me izzit i do the tat thing izzit u and me do but i die oso don say...the officer say if i don say he will ask u up...because the whole school oso know u are my stead....don know which fucker say de...i think is the fucker teacher say de ba....i don wan hai u to come up so i say the truth but u oso went up...sorry ar...but now i still can protect u...because i still at ur back looking at u...sorry ar...u happen anything in school or wat i will now de...like tat time who stole ur hp i oso know ...i go find that person...if he /she wan touch u i will find them back...u know me if u happen anything i will help u...use up all my strange i will sure help u de...i wont look u like tat...this is all my feeling from my heart...never mind i suffer...i will try...not try is i will take it...i don wan go fan u...i know if i go find u...u will get more fan....i know wat can i do le...is looking at ur back...i know u and ur stead now is very happy...max,fuxiang,ken say wan go find tat guy...but i say don wan le let her go...she happy i oso happy....maybe time is really up...i should let go...but i can not....really..i try before le......u happy a not now..??u tell me wat should i do....if can i oso don wan to know u...i don know now so hurt...but i never regret...if don have this thing to happen i wont grow up...and i wont know how to think....i know u hate me now...but i wont blame u..because i know i hurt u de is more pain then me...but u can overcome is good.....but can not do it...i don wan...i not like last time...i still wait for ur one call and a msg...never mind tat call or msg is scolding me or not....it ok to me...i really lost my way... i don kknow which way i should go...when tat time i leave u....i until now oso don know which way i need to go..now my life is one day go by one day like tat....i don know...this big stone when i can put down...i really very tired u know....u know tat......feel like one sleep don wan to wake up....but can not i know life oso must go...Chew Zi hang u will stand up one day...don give up...already 1 year le can not try until half way.....
